Continuously Coming Out

It’s me. Picture taken by my friend Nella and if you look closely there’s our friend Diana in the background. It was taken after a talk given by our photographer friend Rita.

Francois Lachance

Francois Lachance photographed by Nella Cotrupi at a talk by Rita Leistner

Gay man. Aged 57.

My sidebar comment is inspired by Rachel Giese in the Globe and Mail, “Lose the plot: Why there’s more than one queer narrative“. She observes

Coming out doesn’t guarantee a happy ending, in life or in movies. But being out affords the opportunity to exist on your own terms and, hopefully, be seen in the fullness of your humanity.

She’s right. It makes a difference. Life offers constant opportunities for coming out. The mode of being out involves perpetual revelations. At any age.

And so for day 2150
01.11.2012

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Podiatry of the Poem

Catherine Bowman
“Jesus’ Feet”
in notarikon

Blessed be the vulnerable heel. Blessed be the footstep, for it was our first drumbeat. Blessed be the footprint and the bird track, for it was our first alphabet. Blessed be the feet stained and tarnished by the dirt of the earth, by hard work, for the word transcendent means to climb. Blessed be the vital force of love, that rises from the earth and enters and leaves the body through the feet.

I like how through the beatitudes the picture of the feet as portal to the body is built up step by step.

And so for day 2149
31.10.2012

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Own Your Reaction

Elizabeth Hoover has a chapbook Love in the Wild in which the aestheticization of violence leaves the reader in trembling cognitive dissonance. Here is the end of “War Games” which tells the story of a rescue attempt that butts up against the ravages of body and mind that can no longer be endured.

When I wake to shouting I run to the edge
of the minefield we ringed in barbed wire

[…]

Bigs holds me back and she turns and looks
at all of us, tucks her chin down and rips
the dress slowly from the collar to the hem—bones,
bruises, a bandage black with blood—
all the while singing a little song quietly,
so quietly we hear the click.

And there it ends. The imagination lies suspended before the detonation. A sound offering a freeze frame. And you admire the poet’s skill and shudder at the beauty and begin to register the horror. All condensed in that one click.

In “A Celebration: Maude Oklahoma”, a poem about a lynching and burning in honour of Palmer Sampson (1881-1898) and Lincoln McGeisey (1882-1898), Hoover again manages to convey eerie haunting on a pivotal word. We are invited into a mind we find repulsive. Again the tension turns on positioning of a small detail shattering any pleasure offered up by easy voyeurism. The reader is forced to resist complicity and the final statement turns into a question and sets the mind a spinning.

In the dovegray morning, a slice of yellow appeared
along the horizon. it was winter and the frost
tinged the tips of the grass white. The crowd was quiet,
sifting through the greasy ashes looking for souvenirs:
the soot-speckled link of the chain, a vertebrae twisted
from the spine, or even just a hunk of the burnt stump,
anything to hold up to the light, saying Remember,
remember when we burned those two boys
how lovely they were, bright under the dark oak,
how lovely, what a celebration.

The weight of irony is not light. “Celebration” is leached of its joy.

And so for day 2148
30.10.2012

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Oneiric Oscillations

Jay Hopler
Green Squall

You grow to expect the pattern of statement and counter-statement, a litany of contradictions. And then the series knots upon itself.

It was so loud it was so quiet we didn’t sleep we slept.
We didn’t dream. We dreamt of panthers and hatpins, orchids
     and ashcans.

[…]

There were no dogs; no dogs were there.
Even so, sleep was impossible —
All that howling! We dreamt of panthers and hatpins, orchids
     and ashcans.

[…]

“The Howling of the Gods”

The impossibility of sleep gives way to the waking dream of the impossible.

And so for day 2147
29.10.2012

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Taking Stock of Making Stock

Mijoter: Faire cuire ou bouillir lentement.

Recipe

I’m the one working the kitchen, making stock
from chicken wing tips I’d saved in the freezer,
some bouillon cubes, the picked-over carcass

of last Sunday’s dinner. A gallon of spring water

[…]

I’m the one simmering, steaming, ladling soup

over wild rice in your finest kiln-fired crockery,
Chef de Cuisine of intense flavour, of this oh so
nice
homemade & homely midday decadence.

John Hoppenthaler
Anticipate the Coming Reservoir

Mijoter: Mûrir, préparer avec réflexion et discrétion (une affaire, un mauvais coup, une plaisanterie).

And so for day 2146
28.10.2012

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The Fix

Ursula Le Guin

In 2014, she attacked publishers, including her own, for treating books as commodities. “The profit motive often is in conflict with the aims of art. We live in capitalism,” she told an audience of science-fiction luminaries at the 2014 US national book awards. “Its power seems inescapable. So did the divine right of kings. Any human power can be resisted and changed by human beings. Resistance and change often begin in art, and very often in our art – the art of words.”

https://www.theguardian.com/books/2017/feb/03/ursula-le-guin-rebuts-charge-that-science-fiction-is-alternative-fact

Terry Eagleton reviewing How to Change the World: Marx and Marxism 1840-2011 by Eric Hobsbawm in the London Review of Books

Marxism is about leisure, not labour. It is a project that should be eagerly supported by all those who dislike having to work. It holds that the most precious activities are those done simply for the hell of it, and that art is in this sense the paradigm of authentic human activity. It also holds that the material resources that would make such a society possible already exist in principle, but are generated in a way that compels the great majority to work as hard as our Neolithic ancestors did. We have thus made astounding progress, and no progress at all.

https://www.lrb.co.uk/v33/n05/terry-eagleton/indomitable

The means. The end.

And so for day 2145
27.10.2012

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Archive Garden Potager

Louise Glück opens her forward to Green Squall by Jay Hopler with the following observation:

Before poetry began pitching its tents in the library and museum, before, that is, mediated experience supplanted what came to seem the naive fantasy of more direct encounter, a great many poems began in the garden.

There is of course “The Garden” by Andrew Marvell which reminds us in a fashion not dissimilar from Glück

Meanwhile the mind, from pleasure less,
Withdraws into its happiness;
The mind, that ocean where each kind
Does straight its own resemblance find,
Yet it creates, transcending these,
Far other worlds, and other seas;
Annihilating all that’s made
To a green thought in a green shade.

It is however to an interesting experience I found in reading a poem from Catherine Bowman’s The Plath Cabinet to which I turn. There is a moment in the fall and spring, before or after the snow, and before or after the effulgence of vegetation, where the garden reveals its structure. On my first reading I cruised through “The Sylvia Convention: Flower Rooms” ravished by its variations only to understand when at the end when spotting in close proximity its XYZ references that what I was reading was an abecedarian*. And nevermore can I be so innocent in the garden.

Sylvias as Amaryllis aproned
whip up cakes, creams, chicken livers.
Sylvias as fields of Baby’s Breath practice
interviews for the BBC. Calla Lily
Sylvias change nappies, type Ted’s poems, hope

[…]

Windflower Sylvias, Sylvias as Xeranthemum
Yarrow, and Zinnia, hundreds and hundreds
gather, write poems like lightning, each one
quicker than the last: an irresistible blaze

There goes up in smoke my naive unknowing that the letters proceeded in a well-defined order. I have moved from the hedgerow or meadow to the potager knowing the garden walks in the realm of poetry can accommodate more wild encounters over the horizon and a trip home to the orderly vegetable patch of the kitchen garden.

*She does it again in “The O Store” in notarikon — pulled in by the pace and only retroactively taking in the ABC.

And so for day 2144
26.10.2012

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Thinking Depicting

In the Washington Post of August 12, 2011, under the heading “Reich bows to protest of 9/11 CD cover art” Anne Midgette

For the cover of the premiere recording of his searing piece “WTC 9/11” on the Nonesuch label, Steve Reich selected an image of the burning towers of the World Trade Center on Sept. 11, 2001 : a stark image of horror unfolding on a beautiful day. When the cover image first appeared in July, in advance of the Sept. 20 CD release, there was a tremendous outcry from people who felt this was a disrespectful and disturbing use of the photograph — so much so that, as Reich announced Thursday in a statement on the Nonesuch Web site , the CD’s cover is being changed.

Here are the images:

reich cover WTC 9/11 Kronos Quartet -- towers plan silhouette smoke
reich cover WTC 9/11 Kronos Quartet -- only smoke

and this European recording by Quatuor Tana

reich WTC 9/11 -- euro cover

With these pictures in mind it is with amazement that I came across this understatement in the poetry of John Hoppenthaler:

On New Year’s Eve I watched fireworks set this skyline ablaze.
I stood outside the bar in blue cold with regulars, cradled delicate
flutes of bubbles in my fingers. We were thinking of towers,
how change had come. Together we wished it meant an early spring.

Nyack, NY: 1/29/02
in Anticipate the Coming Reservoir

The figure of speech is litotes when some is more than enough.

And so for day 2143
25.10.2012

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Performing Authenticity

You gotta love the title of this paper which first appeared in New Media & Society. It quotes a Twitter user: “I tweet honestly, I tweet passionately: Twitter users, context collapse, and the imagined audience”. In the article Alice E. Marwick and danah boyd make very astute observations about performing authenticity.

This concept of ‘authenticity’ is a popular one. We refer to the ‘real me’ and authentic experiences, artifacts, and people. However, there is no such thing as universal authenticity; rather, the authentic is localized, temporally situated social construct that varies widely based on community. [my emphasis]

They continue, with a very important unpacking of the rhetoric of authenticity: “for something to be deemed authentic, something else must be inauthentic.”

Their article leaves us to understand that the authentic is mediated through imagined audiences. The projected interlocutors shape the presentation of self.

I find myself wondering how do I shift mindsets and contexts: who I imagine the eavesdropper might be. See Dave Eggers The Circle.

And so for day 2142
24.10.2012

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Praise of Rural Life

Kenneth Rexroth gave this poem by Lu Yu the title “Evening in the Village”. I like to call it “Retirement”.

Here in the mountain village
Evening falls peacefully.
Half tipsy, I lounge in the
Doorway. The moon shines in the
Twilit sky. The breeze is so
Gentle the water is hardly
Ruffled. I have escaped from
Lies and trouble. I no longer
Have my importance. I
Do not miss my horses and
Chariots. Here at home I
Have plenty of pigs and chickens.

Translated by Kenneth Rexroth in One Hundred Poems from the Chinese

What I like about Rexroth’s rendering is the stops inline. They clump words in interesting ways: doorway / twilit sky ; ruffled / lies and trouble. Just like the pigs and chickens the reader is getting plenty.

And so for day 2141
23.10.2012

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